I was in a cold, isolated box for a lot longer, Z. The worst thing I ever did was hope.

[ And he immediately regrets saying it as soon as the words leave his mouth, closing his eyes as he silently chastises himself. It's too raw, too honest.

Too unhelpful. ]

I don't mean that. [ he tries to self-correct. ] It's just...I don't do well with ah—what did Sam call 'em—triggers. With triggers. Things that remind me of HYDRA.